(( So we obviously did not have work today (or at least my section was not called in). The victim list came out and I could barely bring my self to read it. I can only recognize 3 names and one of them was actually a old family friend.
I am staying back home in the country for a couple days and they are holding a big memorial service at PAX Navy base that my family works on. It hit my home town really hard because it is 98% Naval families and most of them commute up to DC for work. It is like all of the energy is completely drained out of the community.
I really just can’t wait until all of this fades away.
Sorry for being so depressing.
Thanks for all the support you all have been giving. I really appreciate all the nice asks and responses. If I don’t respond to you right away just know that I have actually read it and I will get back to you as soon as I can!
You guys rock ))
(( How rude. ))
(( They just finally released us after being on lock down since like 10am. As soon as they said we could go I got the fuck out of there and almost ran over a couple press members on my way out. They were pretty much stepping on our feet trying to get our story on the shooting. I just got home, chugged down a beer made a sandwich (this was the worst fucking morning to skip breakfast) and got online to see the updated injury/casualty list since they would not let us use our phones in the holding room.
I am still shaking like I never thought I would ever be involved in a shooting and it pains me to think that some of the people that I just said good morning to today might not be there any more (they have not released any of the victims names so I don’t know if I know anyone hurt) The Navy Yard is a extremely high tech and secured campus with photo ID and all that important security shit. This is the one place I would NEVER EVER think a shooting would happen but man was I unfortunately proved wrong.
Running this blog and reblogging pictures from the Theater shooting and all made me think that I was strong and desensitized from violence and that if I was ever faced with a shooting I would not be phased by it but now I feel really sick, paranoid and sad. I was not even in the same building as the shooting (I was just arriving in the parking garage) but just having it hit so close to home I am just speechless.
I am really glad that I have all of you to get out these thoughts and feelings because I think between my mom calling every 10 minutes asking if I am okay and all my friends texting/messaging me asking what happened, my head would explode and it is nice to have the more (some times) rational thinking Holmies to talk to. ))
(( I can’t believe this is happening right next to me aghjgcf ))
(( HOLY SHIT. I am actually getting really nervous now. WTF is happening. ))
(( There was a shooting work today. I only heard the last gun shot (I did not think it was a shot and I did not even know there was a shooting until they started trying to move us silently out of the building) then I saw this link which was scary as shit and I don’t think they have identified the shooter yet. They are holding us as the base rec center until they settle everything. I don’t think there are any casualties.
After running askholmes and reading about shootings for so long, it is so weird actually being involved in one. It is like super surreal I don’t even know how to feel about it especially working in a government center with such high security I used to feel really safe. ))
I really miss it too.
"Suspected" mass murderer in the July Aurora, Colorado movie theater shooting.
I should have just stayed in California...
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